What's wrong with me???....

I don't know what happen to me this few days...
very miserable...
really damn it..
I think I gonna be crazy soon..
I keep on thinking of him non-stop...
get "E" poison I guess..
keeping on passed by his classroom...
just wanna see him for a few seconds..
sometimes I even try to pass by in front of him..
just wanna get attention from him..
I feel like myself so silly and crazy..
what the hell I'm doing??????.........
I heard a lots of his news today...
who like or admire him...
who is a pair with him...
I feel tired of listening all these....
but I can't do anything with all these...
sometimes I feel myself helpless...
I can't control my feelings..
I don't know how only I can stop my feelings...
I will see him everyday...
I feel like I'm gonna be crazy..................
now thinking of his birthday present...
don't know what to give him as birthday present....
either cap or wallet??
or buy him both??
so long I'm thinking of this question..
but now I think I'm not going to give him anything even a simple wish..
if i wanna "kick" him out of my life...
I have told myself for more than thousands times that not to like him anymore....
but my mind ask me not to do so even he will make me suffer...
I feel helpless since the days i met him...
my life is full with him...
his face, his smile, his eyes....
everything about will just in my mind....
very hard to "delete" him...
can't "throw" him into the recycle bin...
what should i do only can ask him to "remove" from my heart????..............
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.............................